A little update! I got a job today!!! I thought I should share this news since it's something that just happened today and is a HUGE answer to prayer. It's not my dream job, in fact it was not the job I would have picked, but I am trusting that God wants me there for a reason. This job is at a store called American Vintage in an outdoor mall, and sells touristy merchandise, as well as Elvis and Marilyn kind of stuff. This is the store where the lady worked who I got to share Jesus with, so I really think He wants to use me in that!

Just yesterday I came to an awesome realization while trying to make sense of why things were going the way they were. To be honest, the past week of looking for a job was an absolute struggle. I cried a lot and felt disconnected from people because of how frustrated I was with my circumstances. After praying and thinking for a while, the thought came to me, "If I am without a job, money, friends, happiness and security, is God still enough for me?" I think God was choosing to take away some of those things for a short time to show me that my happiness and security should not depend on how well my circumstances are going. I was reminded of the verse from Matthew 6:33 where it says, "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." What a difficult, yet absolutely necessary choice to make!

Tonight we had our first weekly meeting that anyone can come to. A lot of students were able to invite people to come as they met people when they were sharing this past week, which was awesome to see! One powerful song we sang was called You Won't Relent by Jesus Culture. I was so struck by the simple chorus: "You won't relent until You have it all; my heart is yours." It was so clear to me in that moment that Jesus hasn't been giving me what I desire because he is doing what it takes to bring me closer to himself and make me see my need for Him. He wants my everything. The bare minimum I give him when things are going well just isn't enough. I came into project not making much time for the Lord. I am seeing more and more my need for Him every day and every second of the day. God is making me see that he's not going to stop working in my life until he has my whole heart, because after all, I gave it to Him.